Wow I thought this who knew

Have you ever wanted something so much yet to have it disappear from your grasp at a moments notice. Have you ever had a dream that never seems to be fulfilled no matter how hard you try. What if everything you did seem to get you nothing but opposition and everything there was that could stop you seem to be there in your way... I mean what would you do doesn't everyone deserve a chance or is it only for the really special ones, the popular ones, the rich ones. Whatever happened to justice for all freedom to pursue your happiness. Our fore fathers had a great idea when they came here they went about it wrong on most accounts but they did have a great idea some good some bad. Well lets say this started it it gave all of us out there the opportunity to dream to think about what we could accomplish in our lives to make it better to make it worse what ever we so wanted to happen at least for the most part. There is accounts where bad stuff happens to good people and good stuff happens to bad people etc etc etc....But to boil it down everyone has made a mistake some has been able to fix it some not some made such a mistake that it was not fixable in most eyes. But regardless of this fact we all dream we all want and we all have uncontrollable feelings. Did you think that you would be where you are today at all did you think that it would be exactly this way of course not no one ever really does don't fool yourself you can say yeah i did but hello lets be honest here there is at least one thing that was not on your list. For me its a lot but there are things I would not change for anything and then there are the many things i wish i could go back and change but i can't so your suppose to learn from those right well i must have slept through that class cause here I am and well I am 30 and I tell you I feel like a failure about the only thing that makes me happy is my children right now and even then they can ware your nerves i would not change them at all I love them with all my heart but sometimes I sit back and well wonder how I got here cause well only the lord knows but you would have thought I would be a little more advanced in life by now oh well the venting and thought process continues just thought i would write some of it down you know well good night all